Not a Good Year's end. I'm venting!!!

This has been a very bad couple of years and it just continues that way. I could blame all sorts of people and actions for all the problems, but that doesn't help one bit. The fact that my foundation was severely destroyed has a great deal to do with it. I have tried very hard to see the good in the actions taken by others, but to this day I can find none. What I do see is that we were in a bad place and God removed us. Now to find another place to feel secure. That is not simple.

This month has been exceptionally hard because the boys both have their birthdays and of course the Christmas and New Year celebrations. We always celebrate their birthdays early so they are not confused or included into the Christmas. One was born 2 days before and the other 2 days after Christmas. Anyway, this year was very important to the oldest as it was his 18th birthday. His mother had told us all that she was coming down and staying over for Christmas. We have not seen her yet.

#1 grandson has been very down and depressed. We had snow. a lot more snow than we are used to having. It stopped a lot of things around here including the last 3 days of school. He has not been able to deal with the fact that she could not get down here. Of course her husband losing the van keys didn't help one bit. Anyway, he has had a very hard month. On the 22nd, he grabbed a knife and slit his wrist open to the point that I called 911. My hubby was physically fighting with him to try and stop him. They both ended up being transported to the hospital. The good thing, #1 has agreed to go into personal therapy. Maybe, just maybe he will deal with his deep seeded problems.

I am sitting here more or less depressed, as the people I used to be able to reach out to talk to and pray with are no more. So, I reach out to the unknown. I pray for guidance and strength. I know that sounds bad, but it could be so much worse. I could be trying to go through all this alone. As it is I have a wonderful, loving and supportive hubby. That is a real blessing.

#2 grandson is a moose. He has gotten so big. He is 17 and bigger that both of us. That is OK, he is our Teddy Bear. He is constantly reaching out to grip my hand or coming to me for a hug. I sincerely pray that never changes. He has a girlfriend, but this time he is using his head a bit more and just being a boyfriend instead of jumping right into saying he is engaged. Score one for me... He has so much trouble in school, but I can not get the school to recognize the problem as learning problems. Just the behavioral problems. So that fight goes on.

OK, I have bent your eyes enough for today. I won't always vent so don't let me scare you off.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!