HAPPY NEW YEAR
TO ONE AND
ALL!!!
MAY GOD BLESS EACH
AND EVERYONE.
The thoughts and ramblings of a Grandmother of 11 and a new Great Granddaughter. Nothing in particular, just everything in general.
This has been a very bad couple of years and it just continues that way. I could blame all sorts of people and actions for all the problems, but that doesn't help one bit. The fact that my foundation was severely destroyed has a great deal to do with it. I have tried very hard to see the good in the actions taken by others, but to this day I can find none. What I do see is that we were in a bad place and God removed us. Now to find another place to feel secure. That is not simple.
This month has been exceptionally hard because the boys both have their birthdays and of course the Christmas and New Year celebrations. We always celebrate their birthdays early so they are not confused or included into the Christmas. One was born 2 days before and the other 2 days after Christmas. Anyway, this year was very important to the oldest as it was his 18th birthday. His mother had told us all that she was coming down and staying over for Christmas. We have not seen her yet.
#1 grandson has been very down and depressed. We had snow. a lot more snow than we are used to having. It stopped a lot of things around here including the last 3 days of school. He has not been able to deal with the fact that she could not get down here. Of course her husband losing the van keys didn't help one bit. Anyway, he has had a very hard month. On the 22nd, he grabbed a knife and slit his wrist open to the point that I called 911. My hubby was physically fighting with him to try and stop him. They both ended up being transported to the hospital. The good thing, #1 has agreed to go into personal therapy. Maybe, just maybe he will deal with his deep seeded problems.
I am sitting here more or less depressed, as the people I used to be able to reach out to talk to and pray with are no more. So, I reach out to the unknown. I pray for guidance and strength. I know that sounds bad, but it could be so much worse. I could be trying to go through all this alone. As it is I have a wonderful, loving and supportive hubby. That is a real blessing.
#2 grandson is a moose. He has gotten so big. He is 17 and bigger that both of us. That is OK, he is our Teddy Bear. He is constantly reaching out to grip my hand or coming to me for a hug. I sincerely pray that never changes. He has a girlfriend, but this time he is using his head a bit more and just being a boyfriend instead of jumping right into saying he is engaged. Score one for me... He has so much trouble in school, but I can not get the school to recognize the problem as learning problems. Just the behavioral problems. So that fight goes on.
OK, I have bent your eyes enough for today. I won't always vent so don't let me scare you off.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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It has been forever it seems like since I visited my site here. So much has happened and then some things have not changed. The boys have grown into very large teens. That was to be expected. They are both struggling in school. That I am sorry about. I try to be as helpful as they will allow. Yes, they are very stubborn. The oldest will be 18 next weekend and my youngest will be 17 on the 23rd. I sit here and wonder where all the years have gone so quickly. It seems like just yesterday I had 2 toddlers in my home. Now they are taller that both G-pa and I. I call them my monsters!!
We still have not been able to find a church. We tried one local church. The people are very nice and the church is completely welcoming. but attending it like attending a funeral every Sunday. It is not the Pastor, he is wonderful, it is just their service. So the search goes on. But we will find the home church we are suppose to attend.
With Christmas just around the corner, I am getting a bit tense. No, I am not ready. We have 11 grandchildren. Not one gift has been figured out yet. "SCREAM"!! But I know from past experience, we always seem to make it work. Every year I make a statement about not waiting until the last moment. Some day I might just do that. If I keep telling myself, I just might actually do it one year. I am making the gifts for the adults. That is under control almost. I need a part for my sewing machine. It won't be in until January, so I have to make trips to the sewing store and use their machines. You know, I like my "OLD" machine better that the new fancy ones.
Well, we have been getting snow here in this corner of the world. It started last Sunday when I was sewing. The drive home was slippery, and long but safe. I went to work on Monday and then Monday night we had a major medical situation and I ended up spending until 2:00AM at the hospital. Everyone was released and sent home. So, on Tuesday I took a personal day. That night the snow cut loose again and we have not had school since. Tomorrow is the last day before Christmas Break. I am taking bets on whether we will have classes or not. Any takers?? Didn't think so. One snow flake around here and everyone goes nuts!!
I think I will stop rambling today. I believe I have possibly bored you enough today. Stay warm and safe.