You would think that time would heal a wound. Not in my case. It has been a bit over seven months since I encountered the worse pain I have ever felt. I posted a blog about it then removed the blog. Now I really wish I had not removed it. I called it "Abandonment and Shock".
The blog was about the way I felt when my church would not let our oldest grandson return to worship. I was in shock. Since when does a sinner not belong is church?? It is a dead issue now as we left that church. We just could not remain members of a church that would push a child aside.
Of course they did not see it that was, and most likely still do not understand the terrific pain their action caused. I honestly do not know how to get past this pain.
We have started attending another church so we could worship. It is a nice friendly welcoming church. I can say nothing against it. But it just leaves me feeling empty. I don't know how to explain. I go, but I do not feel like I have been to church. It is more formal and everything in recited. I think that is what I am having trouble with. I love to sing the worship songs. I love to feel the excitement in the air when the rhythm is strong. There is none of that at the new church. I miss that feeling.
Please forgive me for expressing my feelings. But I have no other way to get them out.
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We go to a Community Church... which has at least 5 songs per service... so maybe you could check one of them out.
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