Talk about running into yourself coming and going, that has been my week. Running here and there to take the boys or pick them up. I'm tired!!!
On top of everything busy, we got two bombs dropped on us yesterday. First at work I got a very hysterical call from my sister. She had just gotten the news that our niece has cervical cancer. She was crying her heart out. After talking with her a while, I was able to get through to her that I had had cervical cancer over 31 years ago.(But who is counting.) It is very survivable if treated early. I am a survivor and I still am. I wish my niece didn't have it, but if she has to have cancer, I am glad she has one that she can beat.
Then, that same night, I got an email from my husband's niece. It seems that my husband's great nephew is in the hospital fighting for his life. He has been diagnosed with an extremely aggressive leukemia. This young man is only 16 years old. This is his second fight for life. He almost died when he was born. This is just so unfair. This is a young family with four children. This young man is their oldest. Please everyone, pray for Austin. May God's will be done.
So, I may vent, moan and groan, but I have a good health life and I am very thankful for it. God has blessed us repeatedly. The boys may have their behavioral problems, but they are strong and healthy. My husband had a triple heart bypass 6 years ago, but the doctor told me they caught it before there was any heart damage. So, am I blessed?? I have to say yes, I believe so.
Tomorrow is Friday. It has been a long week. I could be sad and in the dumps. I think I would rather be thankful for the many gifts I have received.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Internal Strife
You would think that time would heal a wound. Not in my case. It has been a bit over seven months since I encountered the worse pain I have ever felt. I posted a blog about it then removed the blog. Now I really wish I had not removed it. I called it "Abandonment and Shock".
The blog was about the way I felt when my church would not let our oldest grandson return to worship. I was in shock. Since when does a sinner not belong is church?? It is a dead issue now as we left that church. We just could not remain members of a church that would push a child aside.
Of course they did not see it that was, and most likely still do not understand the terrific pain their action caused. I honestly do not know how to get past this pain.
We have started attending another church so we could worship. It is a nice friendly welcoming church. I can say nothing against it. But it just leaves me feeling empty. I don't know how to explain. I go, but I do not feel like I have been to church. It is more formal and everything in recited. I think that is what I am having trouble with. I love to sing the worship songs. I love to feel the excitement in the air when the rhythm is strong. There is none of that at the new church. I miss that feeling.
Please forgive me for expressing my feelings. But I have no other way to get them out.
The blog was about the way I felt when my church would not let our oldest grandson return to worship. I was in shock. Since when does a sinner not belong is church?? It is a dead issue now as we left that church. We just could not remain members of a church that would push a child aside.
Of course they did not see it that was, and most likely still do not understand the terrific pain their action caused. I honestly do not know how to get past this pain.
We have started attending another church so we could worship. It is a nice friendly welcoming church. I can say nothing against it. But it just leaves me feeling empty. I don't know how to explain. I go, but I do not feel like I have been to church. It is more formal and everything in recited. I think that is what I am having trouble with. I love to sing the worship songs. I love to feel the excitement in the air when the rhythm is strong. There is none of that at the new church. I miss that feeling.
Please forgive me for expressing my feelings. But I have no other way to get them out.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Husbands and Kids
Well, I am having to wait on my husband again. Poor guy. He threw out his back again. Actually it is that nerve in the hip area. If you happen to know the painful one I mean. We drove up to visit our daughter and the driving was all it took to set that stupid nerve off again.
He injured it last winter after the big storm we had. He was helping clean up the yard at the other church when he fell. He was laid up for a couple months. I pray it isn't that bad again. It is hard when he is hurting.
Our two grandson have been as helpful as they can. They have been feeding the goats and carrying what ever needs to be carried. they are helping him a lot. Then there is me. they let me do everything myself. Now what is wrong with that picture?? Oh well, I have a special friend that would most likely tell me that I had "finally" become and independent woman. My answer, Not going to happen!! (Private joke.)
Oh well, tomorrow is Friday. It is a non student day at school. So the grandsons will be home with Grandpa and I will enjoy a quiet day at work. I' will get a large amount of work done without have the students there. Sounds strange, but it is true. No recess, no injuries, no sick children, Yes, I will get a lot done.
He injured it last winter after the big storm we had. He was helping clean up the yard at the other church when he fell. He was laid up for a couple months. I pray it isn't that bad again. It is hard when he is hurting.
Our two grandson have been as helpful as they can. They have been feeding the goats and carrying what ever needs to be carried. they are helping him a lot. Then there is me. they let me do everything myself. Now what is wrong with that picture?? Oh well, I have a special friend that would most likely tell me that I had "finally" become and independent woman. My answer, Not going to happen!! (Private joke.)
Oh well, tomorrow is Friday. It is a non student day at school. So the grandsons will be home with Grandpa and I will enjoy a quiet day at work. I' will get a large amount of work done without have the students there. Sounds strange, but it is true. No recess, no injuries, no sick children, Yes, I will get a lot done.
Monday, October 8, 2007
I am baffled...
We took a day trip and visited my daughter yesterday. We had heard from her step mother that things were not good for her. We wanted to find out first hand.
She is fine. The whole problem is that her husband got mad because of the things she was texting to another male. So she is without a way to be contacted by anyone. I am not a bit happy about that. I am raising two children she gave birth to, and if some emergency should happen, I need to be able to reach her. Her step mother read her husband the riot act about taking her phone. It was funny...
What baffles me is that she has been in isolation and abusive situations before. Why is she so tolerant of this one. I would never accept being cut off from my family like she is now. She acts like everything is just fine. Of course he fact that she is ready to go buy a pay as you go phone doesn't make her wake up.
Oh well, her problem. The major problem I have with this situation is the children. What if she needed to call 911 for one of them?? Or the doctor??? This is not a good situation. But that is just my opinion and I am entitled to it.
She is fine. The whole problem is that her husband got mad because of the things she was texting to another male. So she is without a way to be contacted by anyone. I am not a bit happy about that. I am raising two children she gave birth to, and if some emergency should happen, I need to be able to reach her. Her step mother read her husband the riot act about taking her phone. It was funny...
What baffles me is that she has been in isolation and abusive situations before. Why is she so tolerant of this one. I would never accept being cut off from my family like she is now. She acts like everything is just fine. Of course he fact that she is ready to go buy a pay as you go phone doesn't make her wake up.
Oh well, her problem. The major problem I have with this situation is the children. What if she needed to call 911 for one of them?? Or the doctor??? This is not a good situation. But that is just my opinion and I am entitled to it.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
My new Great Granddaughter
She was born Sept 4th at 9:32 PM in Ellensburg WA.She weighed in at 6lbs. 4 oz. and was 18 inches long. Name; Abbigayle Rhae. Mom doesn't like ordinary names.
I met her on Sept 15th and I have to say she is perfect. She is also very content. But then again her "GREAT" grandma was tending to her.
It was a funny experience to be able to call my son and tell him he was a grandfather. He knew she was coming, but I got the first call after she was born.
Scary!!
IMPORTANT NOTICE:
Peninsula High School, Purdy Elementary School and the District office were in lockdown from 12-2:00 today. Everybody is safe.
The lockdown put into effect was successful. We are working closely with the Sheriff’s Department on an unconfirmed threat made upon PHS. We determined that everyone will be dismissed at the regular time and buses will use regular routes.
Student safety is our top priority and I want to personally thank everyone for their cooperation.
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This was a notice we received on the school district web site and by automated phone calls yesterday. It had the tendency to have those little hairs on the back of your neck stand up.
At our school we knew about what was going on before the notice and phone calls because several of the staff have students at this high school. They got cell phone calls from their children. The kids were safe, but scared.
When I found out that the police believed the threat to the high school was a diversion so they could rob a bank 7 miles away from the school, I was mad. How dare they scare the kids just for their personal gain!!! How dare they use our kids as cover!!! What is wrong with people?
My 15 year old came home safely but upset. I expected that much. But, he was maddest because they had to spent the entire time in one classroom. OK, he is fine. The 16 year old came home all excited and wanted to tell me all about it. He is fine too.
Peninsula High School, Purdy Elementary School and the District office were in lockdown from 12-2:00 today. Everybody is safe.
The lockdown put into effect was successful. We are working closely with the Sheriff’s Department on an unconfirmed threat made upon PHS. We determined that everyone will be dismissed at the regular time and buses will use regular routes.
Student safety is our top priority and I want to personally thank everyone for their cooperation.
**************************************************************************************
This was a notice we received on the school district web site and by automated phone calls yesterday. It had the tendency to have those little hairs on the back of your neck stand up.
At our school we knew about what was going on before the notice and phone calls because several of the staff have students at this high school. They got cell phone calls from their children. The kids were safe, but scared.
When I found out that the police believed the threat to the high school was a diversion so they could rob a bank 7 miles away from the school, I was mad. How dare they scare the kids just for their personal gain!!! How dare they use our kids as cover!!! What is wrong with people?
My 15 year old came home safely but upset. I expected that much. But, he was maddest because they had to spent the entire time in one classroom. OK, he is fine. The 16 year old came home all excited and wanted to tell me all about it. He is fine too.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Friends
Today was wonderful. All four of us went to church then over to a friends house for a light meal and a great visit. I always enjoy going to her home. It is friendly and warm. Just the way you like a home.
She is also a foster mother. She is 3 years younger than I am, and she has 1 year old twin girls. They are awesome. I love being around them. One year olds are just finding everything in their world. thee two are special to all of who know and love them. They were born to a drug addicted mother. They had a very rough start, but they are doing wonderfully.
What is fun to me is watching my big mooses interact with these tiny little ones. The boys can't win. Who could not let a sweet little angels win?? We sure have too. It is wonderful to me to see that people care and love damaged children. these two little ones were just so much extra baggage to their bio mother. But the are something very precious to all of us.
This woman has the largest heart, and a strong love of children. She adopted her daughter as a toddler. She is now a young lady. I may also say a very nice young lady. So this woman has always had children in her home. This is not the first foster children she has had. She seems to be the one they call when they need someone to love the throw away babies. she never says no and would take more if she had the room.
This has been a great day that I will remember for some time. I would only wish for many more days like this, it was really a blessed day.
She is also a foster mother. She is 3 years younger than I am, and she has 1 year old twin girls. They are awesome. I love being around them. One year olds are just finding everything in their world. thee two are special to all of who know and love them. They were born to a drug addicted mother. They had a very rough start, but they are doing wonderfully.
What is fun to me is watching my big mooses interact with these tiny little ones. The boys can't win. Who could not let a sweet little angels win?? We sure have too. It is wonderful to me to see that people care and love damaged children. these two little ones were just so much extra baggage to their bio mother. But the are something very precious to all of us.
This woman has the largest heart, and a strong love of children. She adopted her daughter as a toddler. She is now a young lady. I may also say a very nice young lady. So this woman has always had children in her home. This is not the first foster children she has had. She seems to be the one they call when they need someone to love the throw away babies. she never says no and would take more if she had the room.
This has been a great day that I will remember for some time. I would only wish for many more days like this, it was really a blessed day.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Adult Children
I have decided that some of my adult children are anything but adults! Between the two of us we have seven grown children. Out of the seven I only worry about two. I guess that is not a bad average. But these two!!! They have both chosen the wrong road several times. Drinking, drugs, and driving without a license. You would think that after being caught they would learn. Nope, they just keep doing whatever they want.
The one I worry about the most seems not to want to realize he has some serious problems. He is 41 and his life is great. The fact that he has two children he never sees doesn't seem to matter. He always has an excuse why he can't call, why he can't go over there and so on. It really is disappointing. We see our grandchildren, so we are not missing out, but they always ask about him. Sad.
We really found out how serious his problem are when he stayed with us. We have custody of two of our other grandchildren. He took it into his head that he had to straighten them out. He decided that they were completely disrespectful to us. this is just because they did not jump up immediately when asked to do something. He really upset and scared me this last time he went off at one of the boys. He was screaming, yelling and swearing so bad. He was calling the teen he was mad at rotten names. Yes, I had plenty to say, but he just would not stop. He finally went out the door and we have not seen him since. That has been over a week.
He was here because he is injured and needed help and a place to stay. We took him in without even thinking about it. We have a self contained camping trailer that he was using as an apartment. Our only request, "No Smoking" inside the trailer. Shall we talk about respect?? That trailer smells like a dirty full ash tray. I don't get it. Personally, I really feel sorry for him. He has the ability to hold a job paying over $25.00 an hour and he has nothing. What a waste.
The one I worry about the most seems not to want to realize he has some serious problems. He is 41 and his life is great. The fact that he has two children he never sees doesn't seem to matter. He always has an excuse why he can't call, why he can't go over there and so on. It really is disappointing. We see our grandchildren, so we are not missing out, but they always ask about him. Sad.
We really found out how serious his problem are when he stayed with us. We have custody of two of our other grandchildren. He took it into his head that he had to straighten them out. He decided that they were completely disrespectful to us. this is just because they did not jump up immediately when asked to do something. He really upset and scared me this last time he went off at one of the boys. He was screaming, yelling and swearing so bad. He was calling the teen he was mad at rotten names. Yes, I had plenty to say, but he just would not stop. He finally went out the door and we have not seen him since. That has been over a week.
He was here because he is injured and needed help and a place to stay. We took him in without even thinking about it. We have a self contained camping trailer that he was using as an apartment. Our only request, "No Smoking" inside the trailer. Shall we talk about respect?? That trailer smells like a dirty full ash tray. I don't get it. Personally, I really feel sorry for him. He has the ability to hold a job paying over $25.00 an hour and he has nothing. What a waste.
Friday, September 21, 2007
An interesting life.
To start with a touch of background. My husband and I have been raising two grandsons for the last 14 years. It was fun when they were little, but now that they are teens, 15 & 16, life is a bit harder.
It was interesting to have the 15 year old announce that he was engaged. I really had a hard time not cracking up. But that would have been a big no no. So I just said, "hey, that's cool." I know that before long that will be history so why panic. Panic is having him kicked off the school bus for a week for setting off fireworks at school after leaving the bus. "I may kill him yet!!!"
The 16 year old had a bit of trouble with the law, but is now doing very well. I just checked his grades so far this year, OK, an "A" average will do. Do you want to talk about popping your buttons!! WOW I never expected that!!!
Then we get to Gpa. Feisty, that is a good name for his. Wednesday of this week, we had the neighbors horses over to graze in the back yard. Easy mowing!! Anyway he went out to feed our goats. The colt decided that the food was for him. Long story short, Gpa is now on crutches. He hurt his foot trying to keep the horse from getting the goat alfalfa. OK, i know, not smart...
I will talk about family some, friend, or whatever happens to be rolling around in my pointed head.
It was interesting to have the 15 year old announce that he was engaged. I really had a hard time not cracking up. But that would have been a big no no. So I just said, "hey, that's cool." I know that before long that will be history so why panic. Panic is having him kicked off the school bus for a week for setting off fireworks at school after leaving the bus. "I may kill him yet!!!"
The 16 year old had a bit of trouble with the law, but is now doing very well. I just checked his grades so far this year, OK, an "A" average will do. Do you want to talk about popping your buttons!! WOW I never expected that!!!
Then we get to Gpa. Feisty, that is a good name for his. Wednesday of this week, we had the neighbors horses over to graze in the back yard. Easy mowing!! Anyway he went out to feed our goats. The colt decided that the food was for him. Long story short, Gpa is now on crutches. He hurt his foot trying to keep the horse from getting the goat alfalfa. OK, i know, not smart...
I will talk about family some, friend, or whatever happens to be rolling around in my pointed head.
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